I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is changing (sharing) a Tune of Enjoy and Creation or judgments of the vanity centered on what you look for (agree with) in the mind. There is number other way. In the Program, your brain (content) is separate between Lord and the pride; and you are selecting constantly with a side as reason for effect.
Forms (all things of the world) are miscreations sending the ego’s judgmental believed system. We’ve managed to get up (miscreated this world) and can provide it up any time by correcting your head (forgiveness). Correct prayer needs this correction of your head as God has nothing related to forms.
What Prayer is Maybe not:
Since you are usually choosing, what you ask for when you wish is what counts. When you plead in prayer to possess Lord repair an application trouble with yet another kind problem, you are asking the vanity mind for support (not God). Those types and needs are deemed more essential than God’s Enjoy that will stay concealed to their education you decide on the illusion.
All external things (forms) are needs. Other brands are wants, dreams, position, issues, vomiting, individual enjoy (special relationships), presents and targets in this world, etc. They’re everything you pick as alternatives for God’s Love and the confidence will distort the goal of prayer by using them to help the illusion. Thus, prayer can not be about “forms” or “needs” in just about any way.